Graduating

Even if I hate studying for exams and staying up all night to do my assignment, I don't think I am ready to graduate. I want to stay in my comfort zone. I feel like I haven't spend enough of my youth studying :))))

It feels like being 4th year high school again. Yung hindi mo alam kung saan ka nanaman pupunta at pupulutin pagtapos. Para kang tinapon palabas tapos hindi mo pa alam kung ano talaga ang gusto mo sa buhay at ang alam mo lang ay ang mga bagay na ayaw mong gawin. Ano ba talaga ang dapat mong gawin para maging masaya sa buhay? My family cannot understand where I am coming from.

Ah life.

Dream 12.22.11

this morning I had a strange dream. 

the story starts with I am a mermaid and of course I was under the sea. I went into a cave where some humans can apparently live. Tinanong ko yung old Chinese teacher ko kung bumalik yung guy na hinahanap ko. She looked at me with loving eyes and said "no". I was disappointed and I was about to leave, when someone placed his hand on my shoulder. Nung pagtingin ko, I just knew na siya yung taong hinahanap ko. He hugged me and I hugged him back. While I was hugging him, nakita ko na may tatlong mermaids na humahabol sakanya. I looked at him and asked him bakit siya hinahabol. Sabi niya mas pinili niya maging mermaid kesa maging god para makasama ako. In my head meron bang creature na half god and half mermaid. Hindi ko na natanong sakanya yun kasi hinila na niya ako..... ayun lang 

Today

Before this day end, I want to make a sweet blog post.
today is our 5th monthsary and I'm not with him. We celebrated by staying up late last night while we Skyped.

I remembered the first time I saw him. It was JUNE 2010. Last year's annual recruitment week of WG. My friend, Jenna, forced me to join WG even though I really wanted to join Moomedia. Nung araw na pumunta kami sa booth ng WG, siya yung nagbabantay dun along with Chris. Richard handed the forms to me and it was a crush at first sight I thought he was kind and well my type of guy. Ang tanong niya "mag-aapply kayo ng Scribes?" Hindi kami sumagot but he gave us the Scribes' form anyway. Tinanong ko kung ano yung Scribes and then he started explaining, but his answer was short and concise. Akala ko nung masungit siya.

We didn't talked until this year's annual recruitment week, but we attended few activities together. Tinatawagan pa niya ako dati para yayain ako mag attend ng activity ng WG.

1st Scribes' team building 2010-2011

Hindi kami mag ka team nun sa Team building and we didnt even notice each other :)) Ngayon lang namin nakita na magkasama pala kami sa activity na to.

General Assembly of WG pajama party

Eto yung time na we were assigned to our committees and yes napansin ko nung tinawag siya sa committee niya. But then again, he didn't play during the GA so yeah... :)

Green and White 2010

The Green and White photo for the year book. Napapansin niyo na ba? We always end up na magkalapit sa photos ng mga activity. :)) hindi namin pinlano yan :)))

Team Building 

Sinong makakalimot ng team building sa Laguna. :))
selos much ang inabot ko diyan, but it was fun. This time magkateam na kami sa team building. He chooses to be with us :P
Naalala ko yung time na tinanong sakanya kung sino yung crush niya sa org. Nakakatitig siya sakin nun pero ibang name yung sinabi niya. Hindi naman ako nagisip ng kung ano nun kasi sabi ko baka nagiisip lang siya.
That time he was asked if he was a boob guy or a butt guy. Naalala ko nun dumadaan lang ako nung tinanong sakanya yun but I was listening intently. Sabi niya he like girls' hair. Ang sabi ko pa nga nun nagpapakainosente pa tong taong to. Then he began to descibe the hair he likes na feeling ko he was describing my hair. But then again sabi ko sa sarili ko ang feeling ko naman so hindi ko na pinansin.
Nung may umamin samin na orgmate namin na may crush siya sakin, in front of the org, siya lang yung hindi tumawa sakanilang lahat.

Our team in the team building

The next event was the Christmas party. Hindi ako nakaattend nun but he kept on texting me kung asan daw ako. Sa totoo nasa tapat lang ako nung venue ng Christmas party, pero may family reunion kasi so I cant leave, gusto niya akong sundoin pero hassle pa din so hindi nalang natuloy.

Looking back, parang ewan lang kasi about a year na kaming may crush sa isat isa and nagpaparamdam pero pareho kaming iniisip na "hindi siya magkakagusto saakin''.

Naging close lang kami naging close nung Annual Recruitment week din. :) kami lang kasi parating naiiwan halos. We always eat lunch together. I think Moe saw it coming. :))

1st GA 2011

His Shot of me during my birthday July 5, 2011

1st Team Building 2011

Green and White 2011

so yeah, now here we are! :">

Making My Mistakes

This is the day that I realized I want to make my own mistakes. Nakakasawa na kasi pakinggan na "wag mong gawin yan, masasaktan ka lang'. Alam ko words of wisdom yun ika nila, but I'm done acting mature and all grown up. I want to make my own mistakes. Act immaturely, experience being young and not wise.

All my life feeling ko nilagay nila ako sa straight jacket. I love art. I really really do. I know it does not love me back or so my family say. I didn't pursue it because they don't want me to. They want me to be rational with my choice in my career. I understand that too, but cant I just do something because I want to? No whys and no logic. I'm also done pretending I am a logical person, because I'm not. I am an emotional, I feel sad because I want to, I feel happy because I feel that way and I don't want to explain to anyone why I feel that way because I just FEEL that way. I don't want to think of the REASON why. 

Day One to Five

DAY ONE - top five favorite excuses

#1: Malapit na ako! :))
      - Well, minsan malapit naman na talaga ako and recently I am avoiding to use this excuse kasi it miss leads people.The other thing is baka may mas fruitful pa silang magawa kung matagal pa naman talaga ako :D

#2: Ah, hindi ko ba nasabi?
      - This is for personal reasons. I am the type of person na madaming napapansin na hindi dapat. Minsan I conveniently forgot to tell things to the other person para hindi na magkagulo. PERO minsan makakalimutin din talaga ako kasi sa dami ng ginagawa :))))

#3: Hindi ko napansin cellphone ko/hindi ko nareceive text mo.
      - Sometimes busy ako and I cant accommodate people. O minsan naman sadyang hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko :))

#4: I need to go to the comfort room.
      - Pag boring ang lesson at lecture

#5: Wala naman akong kelangan gawin.
      - Excuse para makapaglakwatcha :))


DAY TWO - top five favorite books you've read for school


#1: Abnormal Psychology Book
#2: Theories of Personality
#3: The Metamorphosis
#4: Plato's Republic...? Not sure if it's a book though :D
#5: Social Psychology book. :)

---sorry I cant remember all the authors :D

DAY THREE - top five names you wish were yours


#1: Yasmine
#2: Vincent
#3: Lancelot
#4: Ysabella
#5: Silver Cyrus (Seriously ang ganda ng pangalan ni Silver, kainggit :)))

DAY FOUR - top five favorite things about the internet

#1: I can connect with people
#2: 9gag
#3: Sources for papers
#4: Wikipedia
#5: Picture of adorable things

DAY FIVE - top five places you'd like to live

#1: Tagaytay
#2: Laguna
#3: Batangas
#4: in a suburb where I/we (if you know what I mean :">) can walk peacefully on the sidewalks.
#5: Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

30 Day Challenge

Day One: Top Five Favorite Excuses

Day Two: Top Five Favorite Books You’ve Read For School

Day Three: Top Five Names You Wish Were Yours

Day Four: Top Five Favorite Things About The Internet

Day Five: Top Five Places You’d Like To Live

Day Six: Top Five Things That Happened To You This Past Year

Day Seven: Top Five Favorite Historical Figures

Day Eight: Top Five Biggest Fictional Crushes

Day Nine: Top Five People You’d Like To Kill

Day Ten: Top Five Reasons You Feel The Way You Do Right Now

Day Eleven: Top Five Languages You Wish You Were Fluent In

Day Twelve: Top Five Trends/Styles You Abhor

Day Thirteen: Top Five Dream Jobs

Day Fourteen: Top Five Things You’d Do If You Had Magical Abilities

Day Fifteen: Top Five Favorite Beverages

Day Sixteen: Top Five Things In Life You’d Like An Explanation For

Day Seventeen: Top Five Favorite Things To Do Where You Live

Day Eighteen: Top Five Favorite Sporting Events

Day Nineteen: Top Five Favorite Sandwiches

Day Twenty: Top Five Most Annoying Celebrities

Day Twenty-One: Top Five Movies You Quote Constantly

Day Twenty-Two: Top Five Sexiest People Ever (Dead Or Alive)

Day Twenty-Three: Top Five Worst Teachers You’ve Ever Had

Day Twenty-Four: Top Five Things You Do During “Me-Time”

Day Twenty-Five: Top Five Products You Most Desire

Day Twenty-Six: Top Five Most Useful Inventions

Day Twenty-Seven: Top Five Most Annoying Things About Yourself

Day Twenty-Eight: Top Five Favorite TV Shows

Day Twenty-Nine: Top Five Biggest Guilty Pleasures

Day Thirty: Top Five Favorite Song Lyrics      

Last Day in School for this Term

Today, is kinda happy and sad at the same time.

Happy because:
*I finally finished all the LOE for the budget team today with the help of Richard :)
*Finally natuloy na din kaming lumabas. He bought me my Christmas gift and it is a fountain pen! I'm so happy!
*Finally nakakain na ulit kami sa Flamming Wings.
*We went to the sea side in MOA \m/


Sad because:
*Hindi na kami nakapunta ng Christmas party
*Sa December 28 ko na siya ulit makikita :(

So I made this for him using the pen he gave me :)




Ang cheesy. But anyway, I just thought you guys would like to know what he gave me since alam niyong lahat na I gave him a scarf :)